How Brokeback affected me

[paintedshoes]

Oh, baby brother, Nick, I so happy you are staying with us.  As Nellie said, we need you, too.  You are an important member of this family.  Kisses to Brasen Kael from all of his godparents here, especially his Auntie Jackie.

[NickInIdaho]

YEAHHH !!!!  I am sooo excited and thrilled to death !!!  We love you Nick...Congratulations on you new job,yes!!!! Little Brasen is so lucky to have you...your whole family....and of course WE are lucky too....God Bless,amigo !!

Nellie

Nellie, I am adopting you as my personal cheerleader!   

Hugs to you! 

Nick

[paintedshoes]

This is my first post ever, anywhere. I am a bisexual female and have to say that BBM tore  up my heart.For 2 weeks I tried to figure out why I was so affected by it, until I realized that I was once Ennis and sacrificed the love of my life for societal approval. Now I know why the tears flow, but I've got to be careful to not sink into depression. One of you mentioned clinical depression and wondered if seeing the film again would help. It did help me to clarify my thoughts to see it again but I know I have to quit it soon and deal with my underlying regrets. Thank you.

Jizzy, thank you so much for sharing you pain with us.  It was not easy for any of us to try and explain the emotions that this film generated in our hearts.  If you are worried about clinical depression, professional help is, of course, the best plan.  But we can help, too, if you want us to.  Stick around and share more of your thoughts with us.  Welcome.

[estefue]

wow.

[NickInIdaho]

Oh, baby brother, Nick, I so happy you are staying with us.  As Nellie said, we need you, too.  You are an important member of this family.  Kisses to Brasen Kael from all of his godparents here, especially his Auntie Jackie.

Thanks Aunt Jackie!  You're the bestest! 

(those kissy faces make me laugh!!)   

Nick

[mcnell1120]

YEAHHH !!!!  I am sooo excited and thrilled to death !!!  We love you Nick...Congratulations on you new job,yes!!!! Little Brasen is so lucky to have you...your whole family....and of course WE are lucky too....God Bless,amigo !!

Nellie

Nellie, I am adopting you as my personal cheerleader!   

Hugs to you! 

Nick

Whooo wheee !!!!!..................I'm sooo happy!!!  I really am. Your success is our success,buddy...and if we ever fail somewhere, we will help pick up the pieces my friend.....HUGS...and BESOS(kisses).....

Nel:)

[mcnell1120]

wow.

wow, what?

Oh my God....I was just going to type this.....

AMIGO.....wuz up?

[Hotoddy]

DSDAD,

You can register on the forum and get your very own byline.  Just don't be surprised at becoming a virgin again!

Also, I think DSMOM said some thing in one of her previous posts about PFLAG being for D. Nope, PFLAG is for the parents of gay children

A bit of info about me.  I came out to my mother (single parent) when I was 16 we had some rough times but managed to strike a balance.  And I've been in a relationship for over 45 years now,  which I think makes me D's grandad or even great grandad!!!!  If you want to talk to me I'd be happy to giv e you my email adddress.

[bradINblue]

Those tears were an endless longing for union with masculinity, a loving masculine union combined with tenderness and joy.  Not Tom of Finland or gay subculture distortion.   I cried because for the first time I saw a love story played out through my experience, not through that of the straight world. 

thanks for sharing, voxpop. there are so many of us out here that feel this way. bless you and your lucky partner.

brad

[bradINblue]

NickinIdaho, good choice. Keep sharing.

brad

[NickInIdaho]

Thanks, Brad. I think so too. 

[heartbreaker]

Heartbreaker

Tell your 'friend' your thinking about moving, and just watch his reaction. If he tries to talk you out of it, ask him why he cares. If it's because he loves you, ask him why he would want to keep you around, when there is never going to be the true relationship you need for yourself. Ask him if he thinks you deserve to be happy. If I was happily married, and cared deeply about a friend of mine, I would be trying to hook them up with someone they could truly love and share a life with. Truth is, there are folks out there that take their joy from watching someone love them from a distance. It boosts their ego to know someone is suffering for them. So, they just feed them enough attention to keep them hanging on.

That, or are you sure your not using your friend as an excuse for not claiming your own life? Everyone deserves to have love in their life. But, you aren't going to find it if you don't go out and look for it.
Garry
Which by the way folks... Anyone know of any online groups aimed at developing the friendship first for rural folk. Rather than looking to engage the interlocking bits, and then two weeks later start wondering, who the heck is this jerk? Gods, I can't believe this... all of this is dragging me out of my own self imposed hermitage.

Thanks alot.  That makes a lot of sense.  I have been wanting to visit Wyoming or Montana or a place like that but most of all I want to go stay in Mexico for a while.  As busy and crowded as nyc is I just don't have a connection here.

[Poohbunn]

Thanks alot.  That makes a lot of sense.  I have been wanting to visit Wyoming or Montana or a place like that but most of all I want to go stay in Mexico for a while.  As busy and crowded as nyc is I just don't have a connection here.

If you do visit Mexico or Wyoming, write to us about it.   If you can, send pictures!  Like Ennis, the only traveling I do is around a coffee pot looking for the handle.  RI is a small place and I haven't even seen it all yet!   

My world has certainly expanded since I saw BBM.  I see the world through different eyes, and a renewed spirit.
Debi

[Redbrit]

Nick - I knew I could count on you. And you know that you can count on us. Whatever access you can get to be able to be on this forum from time to time will be time well spent, I promise you. I don't know about you, but I find adjusting to a new job is often quite an undertaking, so we'll be understanding that you won't be able to be 'dropping in' every five minutes. Just stay in touch as much as you comfortably can.

It strikes me that with you and so many other inspiring parents on this thread, we're all being made aware of just how many lucky kids there are out there. Who knew that our of a story so bleak could emerge so many signs of hope?

[Mejack]

My dear BBM friends,

I've been away for a couple of weeks, and could hardly wait to get back to catch up on the posts.

The effects of Brokeback Mountain have consumed me completely.  The memories of Billy and me, in prison in the mid-1950s, prompted me to tell my story on this wonderful board. These past weeks have been spent traveling, trying to find Billy.  He was only twenty.  Today, seventy-two, if he's alive at all.

Memory fails us so easily.  When I try to visualize his handsome facial features, I find they've faded somewhat in my mind, like an old photograph.  I have no photos of Billy.  His parents visited him once and took pictures of us together, but I never saw copies of them.

Tomorrow I go to Georgia to the town where Billy grew up.  I called the librarian at the high school and was assured that they have the yearbooks for the years when he attended.  Those pictures would have been taken only a couple of years before we met.  They'll help restore my memory, and perhaps soon, I'll see him face to face.

Yesterday I was searching through my collection of old photos, and found only one of me.  I thought you all might like to see how young we were.  This was at Apalachee Correctional in 1955 when I was nineteen, wearing the standard blue denims and white tees.  Billy and I had been together for nearly a year.

Mejack / Paul
1955